I just need to complain somewhere that Im allowed to,.. but it is just depressing how much weight Ive gained. and its all on my belly and on my BACK. I have lost like all flexibility I once had. and I know I dont have near the amount of motivation I need to start working out and shit. its WAY too cold to run outside and our treadmill is broken. there are too many different types of exercises, idk where to begin. Im never going to lose this weight. the back fat is killing me.
:'(
my bmi is still in healthy range. its all thats got me okay with my weight gain. but I have to psych myself out to fix this.

livejournal needs to stop being a bitch and let me upload the userpic I just made.

sufjan stevens.
I also added a couple userpics not made by me, the sylar and dexter ones.
uhm, update on life. hm.
thinking about taking a break from guys since they all seem to suck again.
need a new layout header lol. even though I still like this one.
been watching dexter season 2, I love this show.
been working a lot. I love earning money.
christmas season and I bought a sweater hoodie for myself from buckle. god I love that store.
also need shoes for christmas and I bought myself a pair of rocketdogs .. mens size. they just barely pass for fitting me.. maybe I can stuff it with something to help? or just break them in and accept them as loosely fitting shoes.
been getting new music like crazy. Ive been dying to list it all so I can see for myself just how many new artists I have in my library.

I may miss savannah, but Im not sure what the air would smell like. not this crisp, fragile, homey, winter smell of pennsylvania that Ive always held dear.

savannah probably still smells like shit.